rebranding

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Almost two years ago, I moved to LA to pursue a career in writing. I had a foot in the door, flirted with the prospect of maybe, kinda, sort of having a measure of success in getting into the industry at the lowest level.

I came home.

For the past few months, it’s been challenging. I’m happy to be closer to family and friends, thrilled to be a new aunt, and proud to be working as a personal trainer and helping people on their health journeys. I’m also happy to have tried LA, lived it, experienced and explored because I do miss it, more than I anticipated.

More than anything, I’m a little lost. As I edge nearer to 30, I feel like I should have my life figured out more than I do. I get so caught up in thinking how my life should be going rather than focusing on where I am right now. I’ve been a little ball of anxious, negative energy and I’m ready to come out of it.

This is evidenced more in what I claim to be most passionate about: writing. In all the articles and books, random words of advice I’ve poured over to make me a better writer, the message is clear, in order to make it as a writer, you need to write. I haven’t.

So here we are again. When I first created Give Me My Crown Already, I was on the brink of graduating college, I had just lost 100 pounds, and I felt as confident and prepared as I ever had in my life.

Since, I’ve learned a lot about what I don’t want to do professionally and more about sacrifices and failures that were unexpected. I’ve gained a few pounds and sometimes hate myself for it because I think I should have this down by now. It makes me skeptical and negative and exhausted.

When I first was losing weight, I knew nothing. I just tried. Exercise was my best friend. Going from nothing to something had fantastic results and working out helped me better to manage my anxiety. I enjoyed food more than I ever did when I was heavily overweight and was making better choices and having fun concocting fun, healthy, and delicious dishes. Over the course of these past six years, I have maintained most of the weight loss, but I long to get back to my lowest. I slipped into some old, bad habits, not necessarily with eating, which I’m okay with, or exercising, which I do six days a week, but with my negativity.

No more.

As I rebrand this blog, here’s what I promise. I’m writing, in many different fashions because I miss it and agonizing over stringing the perfect words together is far more satisfying in the long run than researching what I should be doing with nothing to show for it. I am going to be honest about my progress and how I feel. I am going to try to not let negativity devour me, which means forgiving myself my humanity.

With my two passions, writing and healthy living so intersected, I have the opportunity to share my story and learn a lot more about myself and life. Thanks for your patience.

Join me?

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monday vibes

It’s good to be home among family and friends. I love Los Angeles in a way I can’t describe, but there’s nothing quite like being with the people who love you and support you no matter what. That’s not to say I didn’t find people close to my heart in LA because I absolutely did.

I flew in on Friday and immediately squeezed my family as hard as possible. It’s been four months since I last saw them, which, for the record, is insane and painful and scary and sad. It felt a little like reprieve to sit in my living room and eat one of my favorite meals and just be.

On Saturday, I hit up my old gym to see some friends because believe me, I missed them too!

And Sunday, oh, well Sunday, we’ll get to on next Monday.

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And….we’re back to that Monday grind. How was your weekend?

I kicked things off on Friday with a run! And then satisfied my craving for In-N-Out as I watched my husband Chris Evan’s film Captain America Civil War. I know, it’s shocking to me that I haven’t seen it too.

On Saturday, I spent the morning brunching and the afternoon at the beach.

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That evening, I hung out with my friend as we drove around LA. Always lovely.

Sunday took me to Knott’s Berry Farm with my cousins Meghan and Sebastian. It’s no Disneyland, which is off limits thanks to the annual pass holder blackout dates, but it’s still fun!

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I’m quite the daredevil with all those roller coasters (some scarier than others). I guess I just have a need for speed. Ew.

Sunday night, I finished some blog posts, watched the West Wing, read, and went to sleep. Happiest of all Mondays!

beachin’ weekend

Time is flying and here we are at Monday again! First, I want to say Happy Father’s Day to my dad who is the very best!

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On Friday night, I got out of work and had dinner and a movie with my cousin Meghan. We saw Rough Night, which was funny but not the best. I will say I haven’t laughed that hard at a movie in awhile though, so it’s worth seeing.

Saturday morning was all about relaxation, starting with a wonderful night’s rest and followed up with a breakfast. That afternoon, I headed downtown to Tacolandia, which meant endless tacos. We  learned that tacos are not something you can or should binge eat and we got full quickly.

That night, I headed over to a friend’s house where we had great conversation, yummy wine, and a fun movie with Scream 2.

The next day was beach day! My friend Brad and I headed to Manhattan Beach where the sun was shining and the waves were perfect.

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I haven’t been in water that warm in maybe forever, but it was fabulous! After, we headed to Palos Verdes to check out the cliff views.

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And to climb on some rocks.

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On the way back, I was checking out any damage to my hair when I caught this picture. My eyes are terrifying! (so of course I had to share).

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Sunday night consisted of dinner, Sex and the City, meal prep, and relaxation.

Cheers to the new week!

weekend report

Greetings, Monday! I’m one tired girl, but it’s all thanks to a great weekend.

Things got started the right way after work on Friday with a margarita and some chips and salsa with some friends. After, I watched some Netflix and happily slumbered my way into Saturday morning.

I had a hankering for some bacon, so I delayed breakfast in favor of grocery shopping and it actually helped beat the crowd! Breakfast was all the more delicious. After some hydration, I headed to the gym and knocked out a killer workout that involved strength training and a HIIT-inspired run. I was a sweaty, but happy mess.

I got a lot of chores done, including meal prepping for Monday, which always feels satisfying.

That night, I headed to Hollywood Forever Cemetery to take in a viewing of The Wizard of Oz. With some wine, cheese and crackers, popcorn, and friends, it was a great night. And a beautiful one to sit under the stars.

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I actually thought this picture was a lot nicer when I snapped it, but I guess it gets the point across…

On Sunday, I was up bright and early for a day at Disneyland to celebrate my cousin’s birthday. There’s nothing quite like Disney that makes you both walk and eat a ton.

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It was a great day, into the night, but I was a tired girl by the end of it.

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weekend things

Another weekend is in the books. I thought with June, the sunshine and warmth would come with it, but LA has entered what they call “June Gloom.” I was also told that the clouds would disappear as we got to afternoon, but this did not happen this weekend.

Hopeful, I headed down to Laguna Beach with my cousins. We left in the late morning and made our way to the beautiful oceanside.

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It looked like this all day.

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And yet, beauty remains.

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I’ve wanted to go to the OC ever since watching The OC, but unfortunately, I didn’t meet my Seth Cohen on this trip. The water was warm enough and had the sun shone through even a little, I would’ve happily dove into those waves. But I remained on the shore a little chilly. Instead, I journaled, read, and walked along the rocks and tide pools. Oh, and ate a lot of unhealthy but yummy beach food.

There’s something about a beach day that wipes a girl out and once I got home, I showered and lounged for a bit before I went to see Wonder Woman. There are so many things I can say about the film, such as that there is power in representation and that we need a strong female lead more than ever, but I’ll keep it simple. It was a great movie and I really enjoyed it. When a film makes you laugh, cry, and think, you know it did a wonderful job. And it’s fun!

On Sunday, I didn’t have any particular plans. I took my time in the morning and happily enjoyed this breakfast.

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After a run to the grocery store, it was time to meal prep, which will be discussed further in tomorrow’s post! I also got myself hydrated enough for a run that I’ll admit wasn’t the smoothest thanks to some tenderness in my calves, but was otherwise successful! The sun might not have been out, but it was hot, and I worked up a good sweat.

My post-workout meal was a glamorous hotdog and broccoli followed up with some relaxing. I also took some time to throw together this baked oatmeal that will make for a couple yummy breakfasts.

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The rest of the night was spent writing, reading, and relaxing, which is pretty much how most Sundays should end.

weekend and travel plans

This weekend was one of relaxation after traveling. I did a lot of nothing, with some exercise thrown in to assuage the guilt.

I had taken a week off from working out thanks to my travel last week and it was much needed. On Saturday, I got back to it with a total body strength routine and some spinning and I was feeling those DOMS on Sunday. A run/walk combo helped stretch out my sore legs in particular, but they were still achey on Sunday night and this morning! I have a love/hate for this kind of pain, but it is the good kind of pain. I guess it was time to mix things up with my plan.

I was also able to catch up on sleep, which had gotten messed up when I took a red-eye to Boston last Friday. I don’t sleep well on planes, especially with my legs feeling a bit cramped. I had a couple of hours to nap once arriving home before my mom and I got mani/pedis for my cousin’s wedding. It was dancing time at the beautiful ceremony and reception and we were up past 2 am, which meant I was awake for the better part of 24+ hours and jet lagged. Whew. But it was well worth it.

The rest of my break was spent with my family, shopping, going to movies and dinner, and spending some quality time. It’s always hard to leave, but it was great to see everybody. Even though it’s a long flight from coast-to-coast, particularly east-to-west, it was nice to gain three hours of the day on the way back.

I captured some snapshots from the plane:

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It was hard to not include the wing of the plane in my photos, so that accounts for the odd angles.

Somehow, it’s Monday again. Enjoy it!